life is getting better.

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

well its been almost 6 weeks since the break up, 8 weeks since we have been physical, 3 weeks since we spoke and almost 2 weeks since I had any corrspondence. I do have to say it is getting better. I think about her less and less. I have stopped dreaming about her. I still care if she is seeing someone but at the same time I have come to terms that more then likely she is and more then likely had him lined up before the break up. I dont know for sure but Im just going to bank on it, so i can come to peace with it. Its gets easier for me anyway, when they leave you alone. She called  3weeks ago in a drunken rage and i didnt answer, she left VM. she then sent a apology email, which I didnt repond. Havent heard anything since. I have started to date. At first I felt very guilty and still do just a little. But since I cant really fined fault in anything I did and I did not do the breaking up. Why, should I feel bad. I can not sit home forever. I got great news today  I will be able to leave on a cruise this month, got very good rate. and Im going. I going to live my life to the fullest and stop the pity party Ive been having. I wish I could take some of the blame but I really dont know where. I have had break ups before and always knew that I had 50 percent of the blame but I honestly can not figure this one out. I was never mean to her, Never denied her anything, was always willing to spend time with her, loved her, talked nice to her, didnt cheat on her, put up with her BS. Took her on at least 2 trips a year, Helped her son out better then his own father. I just cant figure it out. BUt I just wanted to tell everyone that it does get better.

[mitchell16]

well its been almost 6 weeks since the break up, 8 weeks since we have been physical, 3 weeks since we spoke and almost 2 weeks since I had any corrspondence. I do have to say it is getting better. I think about her less and less. I have stopped dreaming about her. I still care if she is seeing someone but at the same time I have come to terms that more then likely she is and more then likely had him lined up before the break up. I dont know for sure but Im just going to bank on it, so i can come to peace with it. Its gets easier for me anyway, when they leave you alone. She called  3weeks ago in a drunken rage and i didnt answer, she left VM. she then sent a apology email, which I didnt repond. Havent heard anything since. I have started to date. At first I felt very guilty and still do just a little. But since I cant really fined fault in anything I did and I did not do the breaking up. Why, should I feel bad. I can not sit home forever. I got great news today  I will be able to leave on a cruise this month, got very good rate. and Im going. I going to live my life to the fullest and stop the pity party Ive been having. I wish I could take some of the blame but I really dont know where. I have had break ups before and always knew that I had 50 percent of the blame but I honestly can not figure this one out. I was never mean to her, Never denied her anything, was always willing to spend time with her, loved her, talked nice to her, didnt cheat on her, put up with her BS. Took her on at least 2 trips a year, Helped her son out better then his own father. I just cant figure it out. BUt I just wanted to tell everyone that it does get better.