Old wounds opened

[Cocoalover]

I broke up with my b/f 3 years ago. Broken, devastated, down hit the bottom. I took one word which he would use and it brought me to here(EMPTY)

Most of you know what the pain like at the end of a relationship and after.

This site helped me a lot , not fully recovered but went on life better than times arguing with him all the times.

I was bleeding ,  feeling confused ashamed to keep up with so much emotional abuse. My love for him made me calm and not to react, leave him decide what he wanted. But do they know what they want? That's what made his life and mine hell.

I start to believe that he was BPD,

Reading on here and my mouth open in disbelief.

I'm a foreigner in the country and planing to go back home. So thought I'm over him and I'd call him for a coffee, the reason was I never wanted to hurt him slightest, and never did but feeling guilty that I would not answer his messages or emails after break up or I'd  answer using wise words collage people's wisdom (my source was here) equipping myself be ready for unknown coming from him. I knew he was lost, but I was too. God , thinking back I don't know how I could manage living

[Validation78]

Hi Coco!

Many of us have experienced similar suffering during and after our relationships with a pwBPD.

How are you feeling now, 3 years later?

Best Wishes,

Val78

[Cocoalover]

hi validation,

could you please help. i did a mistake , my post is not complete and missing what i wanted to say.

any idea how to delete it and post the proper one instead? i find posting on here very complicated.

thanks

[Validation78]

Hi Coco!

If you want to make changes, you only have a short time to do so, which has now passed.

Just hit reply again, and continue. We'll understand that's what you are doing!