could it be?

[laelle]

I fell asleep and had a dream today.  Its not exactly the same as others, but its focus is the same.

I am looking for someone and I either I cant find him or everything works against me so I cant find him.

People, elevators, houses change... . etc... .  Who am I looking for?  It is a mixture of two people... . the father of my daughter who abandoned me pregnant at 18.  He then died when he was 22 /

and my ex bf.  They represent the same person or maybe just a placeholder.  Today, I found him... . and he was a baby.  I held him.

I wonder if part of the reason leaving my ex hurt so bad was because I felt like I was being abandoned again by the father of my daughter?  They both called themselves "petty criminals", they looked alike,  they have the same charm and wit.  

I had to leave him too because he wasnt what he appeared to be and was becoming abusive.

Just a thought.

LOL, I guess I thought being a petty criminal was a positive attribute.

[marbleloser]

What if the baby was you? Would you still have held it lovingly? Maybe the baby was abandoned,like an 18 year old girl who found herself pregnant with no father to help her and stand by her side.

"LOL, I guess I thought being a petty criminal was a positive attribute"

I think you overlooked a few things because of love.Because you're a good person and believe that others share the same values as you do.