Not sure where to begin. Thoughts, advice, kind words greatly appreciated...

[goover]

So I was finally able to get my BPD GF to move out of my place two days ago.  While I am glad that nightmare is over, I am severely depressed.  I am left with a ton of debt, a broken heart, and feelings of hopelessness.  I just can't see things getting better.

Currently I am having problems eating and functioning. I am a freelance worker and my work has dried up.  I don't know what to do with my time.  I don't see a light at the end of the tunnel.  I was abused and used.  The usual.  Now I am left holding the bag on the debt and depression.  I am taking lexapro and trying to feel better, but it's not really helping.  I am also seeing a therapist (she is seeing me for free) and I just don't know what to do.

I am dropping weight to scary levels.  My mom and sister are very worried about me.  I just sit here as the days pass by full of anxiety and thought of losing everything and never recovering.  I really am trying to be positive.  At this point I would not say I am even fit to work.

I'm in a really sad tough spot and I don't know what to do.  All this from an 8 month BPD relationship from hell.  I keep thinking why me?

I'm hurting.

Any advice or kind words or thoughts please?

Sorry for the wallowing post, I'm being honest here... .

[Ittookthislong]

hey there, sorry to hear this. I was in same situation. couldn't motivate myself, stuck thinking about ex. everything in my life fell apart.

it might be hard but let the people who care worry, and help, you need the help right now. if BPD relationship taught me anything in the longrun its to not take for granted those who consistently have shown they care through the years and don't change.

again im sos orry you feel like this.