Plotting "Revenge"

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

I have decided the best way to get back at the devil that almost cost me my life... .

I am getting myself healthy and in shape. Then I am going to search for a healthy woman that is beautiful on both the inside and outside. A woman that is smart and educated like myself. A younger woman that wants kids. We will make love, for real, and it will be wonderful. I will build the family that I thought I had, but was nothing but a fantasy, an illusion.

[papawapa]

I have decided the best way to get back at the devil that almost cost me my life... .

I am getting myself healthy and in shape. Then I am going to search for a healthy woman that is beautiful on both the inside and outside. A woman that is smart and educated like myself. A younger woman that wants kids. We will make love, for real, and it will be wonderful. I will build the family that I thought I had, but was nothing but a fantasy, an illusion.

[talithacumi]

Excellent plan, papawa! 

[Sparky2Blame?]

I think that by making this about YOU and obtaining these things because it's what YOU truely deserve (instead of for revenge)... . would bring you much more "long-term" happiness?

Good luck!

[cska]

Papawawa, sounds like an awesome plan   

Then I am going to search for a healthy woman that is beautiful on both the inside and outside.

The whole BPD experience really makes you appreciate inner beauty, doesn't it? That and consistency. Never again will I be on that roller coaster, never again. No more ups and downs... . I want a consistent relationship!