detaching started today

[simplyasiam]

i can feel the detachment starting its been slow to get here and at times ive been fighting it.

seeing her friday after work felt good but after thinking it over most all night and talking with friends and family my eyes have started to open.

even if she is geting better getting help nothing say she will ever be able to have a truly stable life.

thats what i really want no matter how much i love her she may never be able to do the same.

its hard to let go but i know i must or its could kill me.

i do wish her the best and i know i may slip and feel bad again or could even end up with her again but for now ive got to keep finding me healing and learning what matter to me.

i pray to GOD for everyone here thats in the middle of something like this and for me and mine.

i have been dealing with BPD and recycling for 6 years it broken me made me a shell of a person.

to anyone thats just starting off in a r/s like this (a year or less)and you have been so lucky as to find this place. pzl leran all you can, look past your feelings and your love. make sure you learn all you can.

to  the ppl  that run this site i thank you with my heart and soul ive learned here what i couldnt have anywhere  else. its a wonderful thing you do here