Day 1. NC. Please cross your fingers for me

[Depression = 72% of members]

I did it, I didn't talk to him yesterday after he texted me every excuse in the book as to why he yelled at me left me in tears, even said it was because I did something to make him angry. Finally after a couple of texts yesterday and lest night, I said I understand your sad, but our relationship is over.  Now the complicated part getting him out of the house I bought to help him out and selling it.  No formal lease agreement in place, but I am going to get it sold, and get my stuff. 

This sucks, I can't move on without detangling this mess.  I don't have to speak with him as my family has agreed to help me.

Right now I absolutely hate this person, I am sorry for saying that. He has destroyed so many people and left a path of destruction for everyone but I believed him that people just treated him bad, felt so sorry for him wanted to do anything I could to help him.  Now I have no friends no money huge debt but at least a great job. I have to gather the energy to rebuild. I just wish I would have never met him honestly.

I hung in for two plus years thinking he will change I am worth it... . blah blah blah. I sound so weak and pathetic it makes me sick.

I will be strong and tough and when I feel weak I hope I can come here to get it out, right now I have no other place or people to talk with.

I see so many string people here on this board, it's encouraging. And makes me know there is a light in the tunnel I just need to keep going in that direction.

[Hard2btough]

I did it, I didn't talk to him yesterday after he texted me every excuse in the book as to why he yelled at me left me in tears, even said it was because I did something to make him angry. Finally after a couple of texts yesterday and lest night, I said I understand your sad, but our relationship is over.  Now the complicated part getting him out of the house I bought to help him out and selling it.  No formal lease agreement in place, but I am going to get it sold, and get my stuff. 

This sucks, I can't move on without detangling this mess.  I don't have to speak with him as my family has agreed to help me.

Right now I absolutely hate this person, I am sorry for saying that. He has destroyed so many people and left a path of destruction for everyone but I believed him that people just treated him bad, felt so sorry for him wanted to do anything I could to help him.  Now I have no friends no money huge debt but at least a great job. I have to gather the energy to rebuild. I just wish I would have never met him honestly.

I hung in for two plus years thinking he will change I am worth it... . blah blah blah. I sound so weak and pathetic it makes me sick.

I will be strong and tough and when I feel weak I hope I can come here to get it out, right now I have no other place or people to talk with.

I see so many string people here on this board, it's encouraging. And makes me know there is a light in the tunnel I just need to keep going in that direction.

[ObiRedKenobi]

I know where you're coming from and your in the right place. Its nice to have people to talk to. I'm in the process of going from ours to mine and hers. It sucks and there is the feeling of not being able to move forward until thats done.

[Surnia]

So sorry for all this, H2bt, 


Great, you have support from your family! I guess you will need it.

I hung in for two plus years thinking he will change I am worth it... . blah blah blah. I sound so weak and pathetic it makes me sick.

Thats what many here are going through. In hindsight we know better... . Be nice with yourself! Perhaps you may take some deep breaths.

Do you have a plan about your next steps?

And yes, we are here for you!