I am doing better each day.
The hole and void in my alone time is slowly closing. I'm enjoying all more of the things that I used to do before I met him.
I joined a running/walking group where I can hang out with healthy people.
Not feeling too foggy in my head, sleeping - I'm finally starting to sleep. No more waking up and processing over and over the things I shouldn't have done, things I could've done better.
Funny but I found that when asked what I did for the weekend I can actually say what I did. No longer do I have to beat around the bush and more or less lie because I was with him. Isn't that freeing!
He was hated so much by me friends and family I could never talk and say what I had been up to.
That is what I'm noticing the most... . freedom. I no longer worry about what he'll say, make me feel guilty. He was always so good at dragging his feet or changing the activity we had planned.
NO MORE!
I think I'm beginning to heal.
