"I did all I could. Now it's my turn to live."
Beautifully said. and YES it is your turn to live. I believe that the BPD relationship shakes us to the core in such a strong way that we finally tell ourselves precisely this. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Enough about being the emotional caretaker, Enough abuse, Enough walking on eggshells, Enough uncertainty. That is not love, that is terror. Congratulations to you for having the strength to live.
I second what Hope said.
And what is highlighted in bold.
There is nothing further... .
That can be done for... .
The pwBPD.
There never actually... .
Was... .
Anything that we could have done.
That is the brutal lesson... .
That we have had to learn... .
Via these relationships.
The destructive behavior... .
Of the disorder... .
Will negate... .
All that it encounters... .
Love... .
Being annihilated... .
In the process.
You did the right thing KHC.