My last night

[Knowingishalf]

Tonight is truly my last night in my own home.  I am sitting here just relishing the fact tomorrow I can be free, no matter the stress and craziness following it.  I can be free.  I am taking my daughter with me tomorrow.  And this is the only reason I am leaving.  I have been abused, this I know for sure, so many times I can't even count I have even been physically abused only slightly, I am a fit male and did not feel threatened when she hit me for all she had.  This is really the end, and in someways I feel horrible.  Honestly awful inside for the things I had to do to take care of my daughter.  But tomorrow is another day and here I will not live.  Odd news is she can't live her too long either, as the bankruptcy was filed and being in my name she can hardly save it.  Another odd fact my uBPD wife is also a hoarder, I mean a real hoarder she can throw nothing out, even a drink cup from a fast food shop... .  I will not miss the clutter or the chaos she brings but I am sad for my little daughter tomorrow is the last day with her friends and she doesn't know it.  She is only 2.5 years old but I am sure she will miss them.  Man I am praying that somehow my wife has no fight in her and this divorce can just go 90 days and end, I want nothing but my daughter she can keep her hoard, just not here.  This isn't even a post I expect others to read only a final stress outlet before the big day.  I have 80% of my things already moved out, only she doesn't know.  And I know in divorce I am giving up so many things I am entitled to but I want nothing but a happy daughter.  I could walk today and need nothing but the clothes I am wearing. 

Why is life so crazy some times, it seemed like the closer I was to leaving the worse it became for me.  Tomorrow I throw all cards on the table and play it like it lies.  Mixing poker and golf but what the heck that is my goal. 

[ShadowDancer]

I will be hoping for a hole in one and a royal flush. (Pun intended)

[RecycledNoMore]

Im so very glad for you and your precious daughter, its going to be a brand new day for you both, enjoy it, FREEDOM,!

[nolisan]

A BIG "Atta Boy" for you.

That takes a lot of courage. You aren't alone. Keep posting and keeping us in the loop.

Today is the first day in the rest of you life! Congrats again!

[necchi]

All the sacrifices will pay off quickly ! Break a leg! Don't look back