Since I closed my Facebook and email I have finally gotten the peace I needed. Rumor has it that he has no cellphone now or smartphone. Good for him. All the more power. I don't care. Less way of him getting ahold of me.
Past weekend there was a Deaf event and everyone was there. I didn't go because I knew he would be there and my girls don't need that kind of stuff going on.
Few acquaintances were sending me pictures of him... .look at him. Etc. I can't believe him (throu phone) without him knowing.
I just told them I didn't care. Didn't matter to me.
One friend had told him we were talking. Which shocked my ex. Infact my friend made a statement saying I can't believe how similar K (me) and I are about values, beliefs, raising children, etc. My ex turned around and told him (my friend) GOOD YOU CAN HAVE HER!
I think he was pissed off because he realized that I wasn't so wrong about what I was doing. I actually felt validated. When my friend and I talked he mentioned that he doesn't think my ex will ever fully understand what his behaviors were and how much he did wrong. The more we speak the more he rejects what my ex has told him.
We were all very long time friends. He is one of the few I still socialize with. His wife of 14 years up and left him with their three kids and had an affair. She doesn't even want the kids living with her. He is completely shattered. Now that we talk more he cant believe how much his wife is like my ex!
Other then that I have been doing a lot of self inventory. I started writing again. I am reading a ton. My girls are in residence two nights a week so I have time by myself. My relationship with my boyfriend is still amazing as ever. Solid.
I am resting a lot and rebuilding myself physically. Sometimes I feel anxious and closed in because I am on my own (when no one is around) it is a good time to reflect
I am taking care of myself.
