SamsungUser86
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« on: December 06, 2013, 03:51:00 PM » |
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I'm not going to go into the history here, but you can view my post history and see our back story. Anyway, we just got married. Things have been fantastic for the past 4-5 months... .they haven't been easy because my wife and I live with my parents because we were planning on moving out after graduating in August. However, things have changed. Ever since getting married, my wife has been trying desperately to lose weight. She has lost weight before when we changed our lifestyle in positive ways and she was unmedicated at the time and she lost about 25 pounds. But, that was 3 years ago. Since then she has been diagnosed with BPD, Bi-Polar, PTSD, PCOS, and GERD. She was on a cocktail of medication and therapy since January and it was working with some major breakthroughs in her BPD, but we stopped therapy b/c of cost and other physical diagnoses that demanded our attention more. But, she was still doing well on the meds. She got overwhelmed every once in a while, but they were very mild and we were able to push through it. Before the medication and therapy she was almost impossible to live with sometimes. Some weeks she would be the perfect person, but then I would just see it deteriorating slowly and this was just a perpetual cycle we were both living through.
Anyway, since getting married my wife has tried losing weight and was on 7 medications including a steroid for PCOS and birth control for hormone therapy among her psych meds. However, we were both talking that the only difference between her weight loss success from before and after were her meds. And she was tired of being on her meds... .they made her nauseous, dizzy, and sick in general. So for the sake of her weight-loss she wanted to get off the meds and try without them to lose weight.
Well, I feel like i've lost her. My life has been a living hell the past 2 weeks. My wife was arguing with my parents and yelling and I she just won't let go the things my parents said to her... .it's like, what my parents told her was not okay during the argument but I just want to move on. Now she is saying that she will not calm down until we move, and she wants to move sooner than later and is on a daily basis talking about places to move even after trying to explain how we can't move because of all our debts and bills we are paying now... .but she just doesn't listen. I have no peace anymore. The person I loved to be around, joke with, making plans with, smiling with... .has turned into the person who I knew before the medication and therapy. And now she is convinced herself that the medications never helped her and when I try to talk to her calmly and tell her that she is over-exaggerating and dragging things on for too long, and making too big of a deal out of things... .she thinks i'm the insensitive and stupid one. She keeps telling me that everything will be okay if we could only move, but I know nothing will change.
I know who I was marrying, and I know her true self... .but this I can't handle anymore. I feel like I am married to someone with the maturity of a 15 year old and I can't reason with her... .can't talk sensibly to her and she hangs on every word I say. She is very sensitive to everything I say and the way I say everything. So yet again, I am back to walking egg shells around her.
I've come back here to empty my head because I feel like i've gotten to my breaking point. I am not leaving her, so I don't need comments like that. I know this too will pass and things will get better but i just need some encouraging words of advice and/or support right now in this difficult time. :'(
Thanks... .
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