I love you more than myself?

[Jox]

Hi all,

We hace been separated due to movimg to Imdia for a lwower time. We  had to do different things in different parts of the world, and after a month we are both in India, but in different places, and wont be together for a month.

He, my husband with BPD, just wrote me, I love you more than myself. We also spoke on the phone today, and he is dying from need to see me.

Yet, I dont feel this way, he has improved tremendously, due to the treatments we are doing, that actually I did myself.

Yet when we separated to do get things ready for this big move, after years I found myself on my own.

I am reflecting:

. On hoe evil he has been towards me

.  On how much he controls my social life

.  On how much focus he needs, and attention

.  And that all my life is revolving about his well being.

I dont miss him.  Today on the phone I said it and it felt wrong. 

I feel I am strangled with python snake... .

I am nervous about our reunion... .

Dont know what to say more, I dream of escaping from my life sentence.

Jox

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[Jox]

I said on the phone I miss you.

Sorry about the typos, new to Ipad.

Also where is the edit button to correct our posts?