Two weeks later I have had no correspondence from her. No remorse. It's like she forgot me so easily . I'm normally very strong character and I'm baffled how this short romance can affect me so much.
I can't sleep properly I keep dreaming of her and don't stop thinking about her 24/7.
I'm a mess. Do I need professional help? I have no closure and never will . I'm mad at myself for being so weak.
What do I do ?
Paul -- I found this site a week ago after feeling the same way you did. You are not alone. This is, by far, the best resource I have found for dealing with what we face, especially since we are all in the same boat.
All I can say is that we will have closure -- not from BPDx -- but from ourselves. We can be mad or sad -- but, ultimately, we will find strength in ourselves, not from BPDx.
Keep reading the stuff here, especially the articles, particularly the one on detachment. I blamed myself when my BPDxgf abandoned me. I internalized her shame/blame. I raged. I wallowed. I tried to win her back. Nothing worked, until I realized that I was NOT going to FIX her.
You're in the right place. Keep reading & posting.
