It is wonderful to just move on... . My anger has diminished substantially. I always had this need, ... . this longing for me to not just approach her but to demand an explanation from her regarding her behaviour, and her outbursts, her alcoholism, her rages, the awful way she treated me as well as our children... .
Now I just don't give a crap anymore.
I think that I hit this stage recently ogopogodude. As ForeverDad stated, grieving is a process and there's no order with the different stages. I read
TOOLS: Radical Acceptance for family members because it was mentioned a few times on the boards. It's helped me with putting this traumatic event into perspective and move on.
My anger has subsided. I would say I still have resentment because of her impulsive actions and lack of foresight. I have finally accepted that her behaviors are a part of the disorder and I won't get an explanation, apology or remorse from her. It is what it is.
This is the first weekend in a long time that I have been able to enjoy peacefully. Perhaps even years. It feels like that because I'm not worried about her, I feel less anxiety. I don't know about you, but I plan on basking in the sun for awhile. I earned it after many years of FOG, anxiety and walking on eggshells and I'm pretty sure you have too.
