I didn't respond. I was shocked to get these emails . I wanted to defend myself, still want to but im not going to engage it. Even though I am by the fact that i am being triggered right now. I've been doing the usual of trying to figure out what was going on for him to send these things etc. Back to crazy land again. Going to take care of myself today and tomorrow. I'm sad.
I am sorry you are in this position, but I am grateful you posted, and I think you made a good decision for yourself to "not respond."
You are doing good work, C. Is there any way to block his messages? If you have gmail you can set filters to send all emails from a specific person directly to "trash" so you don't need to torture yourself.
I also hope you have had glimpses of a good life on your own two feet, without the ex. Personally, I've been trying to "visualize" my future where the wounds in me are healed, where I am smiling, and where I am at peace with what happened. In those visualizations, there are no criticisms, blames, and shames that hurt my heart, distress my head, or trigger me.
You are freeing yourself, Corraline. You are doing the hard work, and we're with you.