Thanks for replying
Yeah I've thought about deleting and removing all mutual friends so I don't get pied in the face unexpectedly, but strangely it would feel final and I don't think I'm ready for it to be final even though I know I don't really have a choice.
I know I'll never be able to forgive either of them for how lie they've made me feel, it doesn't even seem like an option.
In reply to your question about friends, no I don't really have anyone else that I can speak to. I work with a nice bunch of people but they're all settled with kids and aren't interested in my silly dramas. I'm still on good terms with my exbf and occasionally we exchange the odd message via Facebook, I felt so down last night that I messaged him just because I wanted to speak to someone- he was really nice about it but I feel that people think I should just over it and forget but I can't.
The things she said may be true, perhaps that's why I now have no friends.
If I didn't have my mum around, and if I wasn't so scared of breaking her heart, I would've been outta here already.
This place is the only place I can write about it or talk about it without feeling like people think I'm pathetic- it's quite embarrassing really, I know I just need to pull myself together.