having a little setback this weekend

[corraline]

I realize its still early days but i became a little melancholic and lonely this weekend with Easter and all.

It triggered alot of my feelings for him.  The things i miss about him.  There were alot of things I felt were wonderful and I really did have alot of fun when things weren't so disruptive and difficult.

I've come to accept that he may have BPD, and i have alot of serious issues myself.  I've come to accept that I just could not continue any longer. I don't like being with myself when i feel yucky.  I want to reach out to him when i feel this way.  This is not fair to him either. He can't take care of my yucky loneliness.  I have to do it.  ugh.

Things are different now, i can't go back. Nor do i even have the opportunity to.  He is not reaching out this way anyway.

I have to get on with my life.

  I am going to help a friend today  who is seriously ill . She has cancer. She starts chemo soon.  We are going to do some healing together.  I'm going to focus my love and care towards someone who really needs it right now.

[Turkish]

 I am going to help a friend today  who is seriously ill . She has cancer. She starts chemo soon.  We are going to do some healing together.  I'm going to focus my love and care towards someone who really needs it right now.

That is real  , corraline. 

[HappyNihilist]

 I am going to help a friend today  who is seriously ill . She has cancer. She starts chemo soon.  We are going to do some healing together.  I'm going to focus my love and care towards someone who really needs it right now.

That is real  , corraline. 

Agreed 100%. 

You both need each other's love, care, and healing. What a beautiful way to spend the day.

You've come a long way, and you realize that. Keep it up.