She broke NC and I followed suit

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

She called me using the viber app on Wednesday night just after midnight when it became her birthday. Then when I woke up and saw she called, the app said she deleted her viber app off her phone. Then about mid morning, her profile picture changed and I knew then her account was back. She changed her pic to my favorite pic of her by the way (she knows this))

I thought about messaging her all day. Then finally at about 9pm yesterday I wrote her on viber "saw you called. Happy birthday".

About an hour later i get 2 messages:

"Was an accident. Sorry about that"

"Thank you"

I wrote her back an hour later

"You bet"

And that was it

[JohnThorn]

She called me using the viber app on Wednesday night just after midnight when it became her birthday. Then when I woke up and saw she called, the app said she deleted her viber app off her phone. Then about mid morning, her profile picture changed and I knew then her account was back. She changed her pic to my favorite pic of her by the way (she knows this))

I thought about messaging her all day. Then finally at about 9pm yesterday I wrote her on viber "saw you called. Happy birthday".

About an hour later i get 2 messages:

"Was an accident. Sorry about that"

"Thank you"

I wrote her back an hour later

"You bet"

And that was it

[mitti]

It may be that she immediately panicked when she got the message from you, but no way was her calling you an accident.

[JohnThorn]

It was just to mindfukc me?

[foiles]

She probably had a need for attention and knew she could do it that way. But who knows.

[mitti]

It was just to mindfukc me?

It might just be that in that moment she genuinely wanted to hear from you and missed you but some pwBPD flip between extremes so quickly that although they do sincerely mean what they say in the moment they say it, they may be just as sincere saying the opposite the next moment. No idea about her agenda when she called you but it was no mistake.

[Split black]

It was just to mindfukc me?

Ive been going thru the same crap. Yes, its a mind___. Totally. I was doing awesome since end of Feb then since the end of May and in June... . I answered some text which became nothing more then her ability to engage and then demonize me. Right up until this evening... . its like I keep sticking the same dirty needle in my arm. I never contact her... . but find it almost impossible not to engage... and I keep getting my teeth kicked down my throat. But from past recyles... . I know this is her way of controling the action.

Shes going to be surprised next week when I lose my number and get a new one. Im so sick of it. Regroup JohnThorn and go full NC again. You will feel better.

[free-n-clear]

It was just to mindfukc me?

   Possibly, but doubtful. I think my uBPDxgf has brief, rare moments of clarity where she realises what she's lost and reaches out, only to relapse almost immediately. For example, I ran into her recently at a social function where she told me that I was the only true friend she had and pleaded with me to "give me a kick in the arse when I need one" - her exact words. She told me where she was staying that night - she's pretty much couch-surfing at the moment - and accepted my offer to walk her home. Within half an hour, she'd left with another guy.