Don't want to get into details.
For months, I was struggling with the idea that he might be fine. The tiny shred of therapy I had forced him into magically worked, and that maybe he was right and I was the crazy one.
But deep down, I knew his little illusion would crumble. Today, it did.
Funny how emotionally, I never BELIEVED it would, but INTELLECTUALLY, I prepared for this day.
I feel like the roller coaster sent me up and down all at once.
Does it ever end?
Mommabear, I am sorry to hear your of your situation. I agree with Tausk and echo the words of my T. It only ends when you get off the ride. I recall you have a child with your ex, which of course makes it difficult if not impossible to be NC and LC.
I read an article here on BPD schemas recently. Specific to BPDs in therapy, it stated that they often are in full Detached Protector mode so well in therapy that they appear to be agreeing to all the therapist suggests, doing their work, etc in essence mirroring and this is actually difficult for the T to decipher regarding which schema is really at work.
I don't guess to generalize but can tell you that this what I believe my expBPD did in therapy. And he had a lot of it. But, it didn't seem to work.
Whatever you are going through, please know support is here for you.
