You guys told me I'd be back

[frustrated b/f]

Tried the best I could to move on over the last 8 month break-up. Like always it seemed inevitable that we'd reunite. BPD family warned me that I'd be back in the same boat within 10 months, but I missed her. We started counseling, talked so passionately about not making the same mistakes. Signed a 12 month lease together. 3 months into that lease, the counseling stopped, her excuse was the money, I personally feel as though its pointless to continue counseling at this point. I am witnessing the same inflammatory arguments and find myself taking the bait over and over.

Financially, I cannot afford the home we're living in by myself, I literally feel trapped, and keep assuring myself that I can just button down the hatches to get through the next 9 months.

How does one deal with prolonging the inevitable? How do you cope with feeling trapped? Do you pretend everything is okay just to get by one day at a time?