Thanks for all your responses it mean alot as i find my way through this dark place.
Is there not an addiction centre, or some kind of social services you can refer her to?
Unfortunately shes been to the one here it offers free counseling its called the crisis centre and part of her living with me meant she had to go to counseling. She just blamed the counselor skipped the meds and didnt even try.
Now she is ignoring you as you try to ask her what's wrong... . she knows you are there, she knows you are now totally obsessed with her situation... .
Ive been feeling this vibe alot more this time around. It wasnt like the first breakup. She apologized if she didnt respond and at least texted me back at some point. She left me alone for two months after i went NC. Now she knows she has me and doesnt even try. She contacts me at least once a week since NC...
She then ran like a coward and my mind shattered the worst its ever shattered it was almost like it was one time too many. The last time i saw her was in march of this year. It is extremely hard to piece my mind back together this time.
This is basically what happened with this last recycle i couldnt quite figure out what felt different but its definitely my sanity the more i think about it. She triggers me more easily this time and the pain is way more intense. Im to the point that i disassociate in some these moments i experience the PTSD she has left in her wake . Like vertigo almost.
Tell her mother about the texts and then wash your hands of it. It sounds harsh but if you stay in that world you will never heal and move on.
Your completely right and i think its whats best as i cant heal a wound with salt being rubbed in it. The madness must stop for me to move on. I will do what needs to be done and walk away.
To add to what I just wrote I recycled again and tried to help again later on around january. After that incident with the fake suicide I changed my number and removed any possible contact she could have with me. She showed up at my door at 2 am and my dumb ass let her in.
This is what i worry about even if i walk away and build a barricade she will still try to scale the defenses...