Did I get cheated, again?

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

I have been in a long distance r/s with BPD gf for 6 years, breakup and recycle for many times, I have been through the roller coaster and rage outbursts... .Every time I thought it was the last time, but I believed in her and we tried to be good again. We have been planning to stay in her city when we get stable, and I have been trying to relocate myself. Meanwhile I visited her once or twice per month, staying for a few days with her. I visited her again two weeks ago, helped her to redecorate her living dining room, bought her new sofa and cabinet, cleared old stuff and cleaned the house. I hope that she could live there more comfortably. We even plan a trip in the coming month, and she asked me to leave some cash for the tour and I did.

Things are quite good this week, we did not fight, we skyped and things seemed to be on the right track. Yesterday she went out with her Dad and when she returned home, I hoped to talk with her for a while. When I called her, she sounded indifferent and did not say much. When I said that I felt she did not want to talk, she said that she felt very tired that she had to talk with me all the time. She just wants to have some private and free time. She felt that she needed to placate me. Bir in fact she did not want to talk. I told her that I had no intention of putting pressure on her, but wanted to talk when she returned. She felt annoyed and said that she did not want to talk and if I was not satisfied, we should break up. In fact, we were just writing messages without direct conversation. She repeated about breaking up three to four times.

I thought we were good this time. I just helped her with all her house chores and bought her new furnitures and left her a good sum of cash. She was very happy this whole week. But then she wants to breakup just because I wanted to talk with her at night. I feel so used and sad. It seems no matter what I did, she just wants things to be in her way. She wants me to accept her temper and other behaviors, but cannot even compromise to talk with me a bit more.

Did she really love me? Or she is just after my money and help over her house work. Am I cheated? I feel very sad that when I try to commit more, she is so cruel to me. Not sure about this time, but in previous occasions, she would call early tomorrow and apologise. But my heart sank this time and feel so exhausted about all drama.

What is that all about please? What should I do? Please give me some advice, I feel helpless.

[MM2013]

I have been in a long distance r/s with BPD gf for 6 years, breakup and recycle for many times, I have been through the roller coaster and rage outbursts... .Every time I thought it was the last time, but I believed in her and we tried to be good again. We have been planning to stay in her city when we get stable, and I have been trying to relocate myself. Meanwhile I visited her once or twice per month, staying for a few days with her. I visited her again two weeks ago, helped her to redecorate her living dining room, bought her new sofa and cabinet, cleared old stuff and cleaned the house. I hope that she could live there more comfortably. We even plan a trip in the coming month, and she asked me to leave some cash for the tour and I did.

Things are quite good this week, we did not fight, we skyped and things seemed to be on the right track. Yesterday she went out with her Dad and when she returned home, I hoped to talk with her for a while. When I called her, she sounded indifferent and did not say much. When I said that I felt she did not want to talk, she said that she felt very tired that she had to talk with me all the time. She just wants to have some private and free time. She felt that she needed to placate me. Bir in fact she did not want to talk. I told her that I had no intention of putting pressure on her, but wanted to talk when she returned. She felt annoyed and said that she did not want to talk and if I was not satisfied, we should break up. In fact, we were just writing messages without direct conversation. She repeated about breaking up three to four times.

I thought we were good this time. I just helped her with all her house chores and bought her new furnitures and left her a good sum of cash. She was very happy this whole week. But then she wants to breakup just because I wanted to talk with her at night. I feel so used and sad. It seems no matter what I did, she just wants things to be in her way. She wants me to accept her temper and other behaviors, but cannot even compromise to talk with me a bit more.

Did she really love me? Or she is just after my money and help over her house work. Am I cheated? I feel very sad that when I try to commit more, she is so cruel to me. Not sure about this time, but in previous occasions, she would call early tomorrow and apologise. But my heart sank this time and feel so exhausted about all drama.

What is that all about please? What should I do? Please give me some advice, I feel helpless.