wanting to break nc

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Havent looked at any social media since break up. haven't

looked today but really struggling... support plllls?

i know if i look ill be extremely hurt this guy treated me

like s*** and i know ill be so hurt if i look.

Anyone else struggling today.

[Hurtbeyondrepair27]

Havent looked at any social media since break up. haven't

looked today but really struggling... support plllls?

i know if i look ill be extremely hurt this guy treated me

like s*** and i know ill be so hurt if i look.

Anyone else struggling today.

[Hurtbeyondrepair27]

Cried for first time this morning since bu... 14 days nc

including no social media stalking...

[Boss302]

If you're "hurtbeyondrepair", then why break NC?

Just asking... .

[Hurtbeyondrepair27]

Dude if any of us could completely

understand all of this do you think we would

be on here? wheres the empathy? i may be hurt but that doesn't

mean i dont love and care about him.

breaking nc for me is looking at his fb.

i dont plan on contacting him.

Im in here forbsupport so i dont break nc.

i thought that was the point of this board.

[Boss302]

Dude if any of us could completely

understand all of this do you think we would

be on here? wheres the empathy? i may be hurt but that doesn't

mean i dont love and care about him.

I'm not being flip by mentioning your screen name - if that's the case, and this person is the one who made you that way, then I'm not sure why you'd want to have anything to do with him. I think you need to consider whether your feelings for this person are worth feeling "hurt beyond repair." Just because you love someone doesn't make it a healthy relationship.

[Hurtbeyondrepair27]

Yea like i said not planning to contact him.

just trying not to see what he is up

to on social media and looking for supoort and others

who understand.

if i thought the relationship was healthy i wouldnt be

here or asking for support.

thanks though.

[Recooperating]

Really struggling too today! I know exactly how you feel hurtbeyond... .I dont wanna contact him, but his FB page is soo tempting today! Im not going to do it... .But I feel like sh/t today. Weird cause I ve been quite alright... .3 steps forward, 2 steps back I guess.

And honestly, I really dont wanna see his FB page... .There's nothing but misery and anger towards me there. And even if it there were loving and caring posts... . It would change a thing. This guy is ill, he can't treat me with normal decency and respect, creates drama, abuses me and hurts me every day. Best thing to do is to stay away as far as possible!

But damn this f"cking sucks!

Stay strong hurtbeyond... .We can do this!  

[Hurtbeyondrepair27]

Really struggling too today! I know exactly how you feel hurtbeyond... .I dont wanna contact him, but his FB page is soo tempting today! Im not going to do it... .But I feel like sh/t today. Weird cause I ve been quite alright... .3 steps forward, 2 steps back I guess.

And honestly, I really dont wanna see his FB page... .There's nothing but misery and anger towards me there. And even if it there were loving and caring posts... .  It would change a thing. This guy is ill, he can't treat me with normal decency and respect, creates drama, abuses me and hurts me every day. Best thing to do is to stay away as far as possible!

But damn this f"cking sucks!

Stay strong hurtbeyond... .We can do this!   

thanks for the support! im def not going to look either

but it is bothering me bc iv beenfine this whole time and haven't

even wanted to look.

14th day... so maybe thats why?

i know that even if he has caring posts (which i doubt)

it means nothing bc he only cares for himself. it actually

has nothing to do with me.

i think i started feeling scared this morning thinking

about turning 30 in two years... .then i felt inadequate

which led to wanting to look.

My self esteem issues destroy my life.