Verbal abuse at it worse for making contact... Need encouragement

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

My exuBPDbf split up on Monday over the silliest argument about my doctors appointment. After explaining to him that I had a bacteria infection(something common in women) he flipped out and started accusing me of sleeping with other men and that I better not have given him a disease and that he is breaking up with me. He kept calling back to back and texting the rudest comments. I felt very insulted, disrespected, and hurt and immediately changed my phone number. I thought NC would be the best since we have so called broke up every week for the past month. BTW each week his accusations and comments became more rude/hurtful and he wanted me to always apologize for something I didn't do. This time around I sent him an email with the results from my doctor (basically showing that my infection was a result of bacteria and the STI screenings were negative) I didn't hear back from him. So I called... I don't know why I called but I did on yesterday (blocked my number of couse) he asked me twice who is this and pretended as if he didn't know me. Then in short he told me to F**k off, erase every picture I have of him, called me a nasty pig and hung up. I was so lost for words... thinking if he every loved my why would he say such hurtful things and react towards me like I was a nobody... I am so hurt right now, shocked, disappointed, upset all at the same time. But I refuse to let him or any man ever treat me like dirt... Is this normal behavior of pwBPD?  So confused I need some encouragement so I am not tempted to make contact again.  :'(

I also want to mention something else I found strange. I straight out asked him if he suffered from a mental illness. Then I mentioned BPD... He said to me Im not a professional and therefore I can't diagnose him with anything. Later he mentioned that he was diagnosed a while back with PostTraumatic Syndrome Disorder and anger issues but they said he did not have BPD or any other mental illness . Thought that was strange to hear this for the first time. I asked him a few days later what happened with the PTSD (used the abbr and he asked me what did that mean?)... Should I suspect that he lied about have PTSD and perhaps was diagnosed with another disorder?

[whythisgirl]

My exuBPDbf split up on Monday over the silliest argument about my doctors appointment. After explaining to him that I had a bacteria infection(something common in women) he flipped out and started accusing me of sleeping with other men and that I better not have given him a disease and that he is breaking up with me. He kept calling back to back and texting the rudest comments. I felt very insulted, disrespected, and hurt and immediately changed my phone number. I thought NC would be the best since we have so called broke up every week for the past month. BTW each week his accusations and comments became more rude/hurtful and he wanted me to always apologize for something I didn't do. This time around I sent him an email with the results from my doctor (basically showing that my infection was a result of bacteria and the STI screenings were negative) I didn't hear back from him. So I called... I don't know why I called but I did on yesterday (blocked my number of couse) he asked me twice who is this and pretended as if he didn't know me. Then in short he told me to F**k off, erase every picture I have of him, called me a nasty pig and hung up. I was so lost for words... thinking if he every loved my why would he say such hurtful things and react towards me like I was a nobody... I am so hurt right now, shocked, disappointed, upset all at the same time. But I refuse to let him or any man ever treat me like dirt... Is this normal behavior of pwBPD?  So confused I need some encouragement so I am not tempted to make contact again.  :'(

I also want to mention something else I found strange. I straight out asked him if he suffered from a mental illness. Then I mentioned BPD... He said to me Im not a professional and therefore I can't diagnose him with anything. Later he mentioned that he was diagnosed a while back with PostTraumatic Syndrome Disorder and anger issues but they said he did not have BPD or any other mental illness . Thought that was strange to hear this for the first time. I asked him a few days later what happened with the PTSD (used the abbr and he asked me what did that mean?)... Should I suspect that he lied about have PTSD and perhaps was diagnosed with another disorder?

[whythisgirl]

I also want to mention something else I found strange. I straight out asked him if he suffered from a mental illness. Then I mentioned BPD... He said to me Im not a professional and therefore I can't diagnose him with anything. Later he mentioned that he was diagnosed a while back with PostTraumatic Syndrome Disorder and anger issues but they said he did not have BPD or any other mental illness . Thought that was strange to hear this for the first time. I asked him a few days later what happened with the PTSD (used the abbr and he asked me what did that mean?)... Should I suspect that he lied about have PTSD and perhaps was diagnosed with another disorder?