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[Epicsquirrel]

I just registerd after reading several articals on the sight that gave me more insight in what I had been thrue with my girlfriend with BPD.

It's scary how well our relashionship fit the relashionship pattern written here.

I am trying to get over the feeling of shame that I dident leave her eirlier, that I stayed in such a destructive relashionship. I also feel deeply used and manipulated, after the breakup I feel I can think again. But flashbacks to situations I put myself thrue, the way she totally used and abused me really makes me question alot about myself and her. How much of her actions where "automatic" and how many where deliberate. I am a very empatic and kind person but with a strong will of my own, but my will was broken down over time and she sucked all the empaty she could out of me.

I feel shame cause I should have reacted faster, I am perplexed that I fell for all her trix (that I now can see clearly in heinsight).

I will look around in the forum, and probably share my full story cause I need to get it out of my system and talk to others that have had similar experiances. I feel the need to understand more of what the hell happend.

[Mutt]

Hi Epicsquirrel,



I'm sorry to hear that. A relatioship break-up with a pwBPD is painful, chaotic and confusion.

I am trying to get over the feeling of shame that I dident leave her eirlier, that I stayed in such a destructive relashionship.

Don't be hard on yourself.

strong will of my own, but my will was broken down over time

I'm of strong will too. I can relate.

I needed a helping hand and got many here.

It helps to talk.

I understand from another post it's hard talking about this stuff? Are you seeing a T?