Compulsive sex, cheating, lying, being replaced...

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

Hi. So i want to tell you a bit of a story with my exBPD (diagnosed). We were two males couple; i'm gay and he's bi (but that's doesn't matter in this post though).

I'd like to know if any of you experieced such bizzare behaviour (not bizzare for BPD, huh?).

He had cheated on me before our first break-up (he weren't sorry, it were drugs and alcochol of course that made him to do it). Obviously I didn't know about it. He told me he had cheated on me two weeks later, the day we got back to each other. That was a recycle which now I'm aware of. I forgave him, stupid me... .

Well, then we were a couple for three months before he broke up with me again (I'm still laughing about it, because both times he broke up with me via Facebook and the messages were written nearly the same way). I was so sad, missing him and guess what he was doing at that time? Hooking up with a lot of strangers (he even boosted about it and told me the exact number of these strangers !), banging or being banged in clubs, dark-rooms etc., drinking lots of alcohol and taking drugs. He also found a replacement with whom he's spending time with, sleeping in his apartment etc. He's better than me of course.

I know that he misses me from time to time (how do i know? we had to known each other on a specific forum so I have access to his topic there where he writes about everything that's going on in his life) but it was me who was the monster and ruined his life (obviously!).

A couple of days ago I have burned bridges by writing this long, long post on this forum making fun of him, telling how happy I am etc. and it was full of irony in general. He was like "Oh I'm happy you're doing good" and other s!&t with don't-care attitude, he denied any of his behaviour in the post though and other users were nasty to me (obviously!).

Well, anyway, I hate him now and I don't regret anything. I don't like that the life's not fair but I hope I'll be happy soon (I'm going to collegue in a couple of months so that will be a fresh start, I guess, I have so many plans)... .

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Hi. So i want to tell you a bit of a story with my exBPD (diagnosed). We were two males couple; i'm gay and he's bi (but that's doesn't matter in this post though).

I'd like to know if any of you experieced such bizzare behaviour (not bizzare for BPD, huh?).

He had cheated on me before our first break-up (he weren't sorry, it were drugs and alcochol of course that made him to do it). Obviously I didn't know about it. He told me he had cheated on me two weeks later, the day we got back to each other. That was a recycle which now I'm aware of. I forgave him, stupid me... .

Well, then we were a couple for three months before he broke up with me again (I'm still laughing about it, because both times he broke up with me via Facebook and the messages were written nearly the same way). I was so sad, missing him and guess what he was doing at that time? Hooking up with a lot of strangers (he even boosted about it and told me the exact number of these strangers !), banging or being banged in clubs, dark-rooms etc., drinking lots of alcohol and taking drugs. He also found a replacement with whom he's spending time with, sleeping in his apartment etc. He's better than me of course.

I know that he misses me from time to time (how do i know? we had to known each other on a specific forum so I have access to his topic there where he writes about everything that's going on in his life) but it was me who was the monster and ruined his life (obviously!).

A couple of days ago I have burned bridges by writing this long, long post on this forum making fun of him, telling how happy I am etc. and it was full of irony in general. He was like "Oh I'm happy you're doing good" and other s!&t with don't-care attitude, he denied any of his behaviour in the post though and other users were nasty to me (obviously!).

Well, anyway, I hate him now and I don't regret anything. I don't like that the life's not fair but I hope I'll be happy soon (I'm going to collegue in a couple of months so that will be a fresh start, I guess, I have so many plans)... .

[Agent_of_Chaos]

Hi. So i want to tell you a bit of a story with my exBPD (diagnosed). We were two males couple; i'm gay and he's bi (but that's doesn't matter in this post though).

I'd like to know if any of you experieced such bizzare behaviour (not bizzare for BPD, huh?).

He had cheated on me before our first break-up (he weren't sorry, it were drugs and alcochol of course that made him to do it). Obviously I didn't know about it. He told me he had cheated on me two weeks later, the day we got back to each other. That was a recycle which now I'm aware of. I forgave him, stupid me... .

Well, then we were a couple for three months before he broke up with me again (I'm still laughing about it, because both times he broke up with me via Facebook and the messages were written nearly the same way). I was so sad, missing him and guess what he was doing at that time? Hooking up with a lot of strangers (he even boosted about it and told me the exact number of these strangers !), banging or being banged in clubs, dark-rooms etc., drinking lots of alcohol and taking drugs. He also found a replacement with whom he's spending time with, sleeping in his apartment etc. He's better than me of course.

I know that he misses me from time to time (how do i know? we had to known each other on a specific forum so I have access to his topic there where he writes about everything that's going on in his life) but it was me who was the monster and ruined his life (obviously!).

A couple of days ago I have burned bridges by writing this long, long post on this forum making fun of him, telling how happy I am etc. and it was full of irony in general. He was like "Oh I'm happy you're doing good" and other s!&t with don't-care attitude, he denied any of his behaviour in the post though and other users were nasty to me (obviously!).

Well, anyway, I hate him now and I don't regret anything. I don't like that the life's not fair but I hope I'll be happy soon (I'm going to collegue in a couple of months so that will be a fresh start, I guess, I have so many plans)... .

Hey there, welcome. The behavior is rather buzzard but seems to be quite telling. You seem to have a positive outlook but I have to ask how invested were you?

This place is a great location to start your journey. whether it be by relating to others situations and realizing you aren't alone, to understanding the disorder.