2 Months ago i left my 'soulmate'

[mitatsu]

As the title says 8 weeks ago i grabbed some things and literally ran to a friends house as i'd become that scared of her moods... .i had 2 weeks of hell after that (i asked her to only contact through a mutual friend) abuse can we still be friends then suicide threats... .until i lost it and gave her (much to my shame but now i'm kinda glad i did) hell back and was pretty candid (late night bit of booze and wrecked emotions) i've heard nothing directly since have got most of my stuff back lost £500 on a holiday i paid for had the police sent to my new sanctuary been shunned by my 'loving' M.I.L (Who's an enabler she's seen her daughter drunk on many occassions) been through the mill emotion wise and tomorrow i movethe last of my stuff from a shed i had built at my M.I.L AND D'YA KNOW WHAT!

Thank the heavens i escaped i loved my wife dearly but i cannot love the illness she has and that illness is her true soulmate i dont wish her bad i know she will just repeat the cycle i'm not bothered if i've been replaced i'm sure i was the one she truly loved the most but i can accept that love was need i see my faults and accept my part in all of it and i'm thankful for the odd time i saw the real woman who lived under that toxic sludge

Fly free baby i forgive you and release you to your future i hope those beautiful eyes find the happiness you deserve as i hope you forgive me and allow me to find all i deserve