I found a notebook that I wrote down everything when I split from my ex wife. It was shocking looking back at how bad I was and how much she did. Lots of little and big things that really messed with me.
Which is why the marriage has to end. I am not strong enough to set/enforce boundaries, and this is the wrong environment to learn. I cannot expect her to change, and I can't do this.
I'm really broken right now. I'm a mess. I'm surviving by staying in "spreadsheet mode" -- and focusing on the next steps in a detached, unemotional manner. I need this over so I can grieve and heal.
Continuing to try means scabs she pick at... .It's what she does.
Gomez