I feel so stupid
The good thing... is you have bpdfamily to lean on... .we are here for you.
The confusing feelings caused by chasing around the feelings and actions of a pwBPD traits are certainly going to make anyone feel stupid... .confused... .exhausted... .lost... .
Honestly... .the best way to handle this is to detach from their feelings... .and attach to you own. Then... .be consistent in making decisions and taking actions that support what you think is healthy for your feelings... .
Be mindful of staying away from extreme swings... .focus on being the "solid center".
Even after you do all this... .most pwBPD traits will still swing back and forth... in a seeming attempt to get you out of the center. If you stay there... .usually their swing subside some.
So... .what can you say and do tomorrow that clearly communicates that you want him to stay... .?
Remember... you don't want these actions to an extreme shift to you... .and you want them to go to a place where you can stay... .and not have to shift mindsets... again... and again...
Hope this makes sense... .I'll check back later to see what ideas you have come up with...
You can do this... .
FF