feel lost

[Kathy W]

Going on 3 months since I ended relationship with Bipolar finance', still hurting. Waited 7 years for him to get better, really loved him. I am sitting here sobbing and I don't know why. I don't want a life with him, but I can't seem to make a life without him.

[sbr1050]

Hang in there!  It does get better... .

Hugs!

[fromheeltoheal]

Hey Kathy-

Has your ex been diagnosed bipolar?  Does he exhibit BPD traits as well?  I'm very familiar with the 'lost' feeling, when something that was everything is now nothing and we haven't gotten on with our lives yet.  It gets better, and what specifically are you thinking and feeling right now?

[Sadly]

Bless you, am sitting here sobbing too, keyboard keeps getting wet and my little cat has done a total runner. Why oh why I keep asking myself. You know what you have left behind, the loneliness and hurt and pain, and then you sit here wondering would I rather be lonely or hurt with him or without him. Someone in another post has just helped me by reminding me what I had written in my first post; so yes, I guess its to be lonely and hurt without him but oh the sadness and misery are nigh on unbearable are they not. How on earth do we deal with it. It is suggested slowly day by day which is fine except right now it's second by second and a minute feels like a lifetime. I am making plans to move as we live over the road from each other but that can't happen like, tomorrow. Well, I have just read this back and really, a fat lot of good I have been helping you! Sorry sweetheart, will post it anyway, at least you know there is someone else clicking keys through a puddle.  xx