Why do I hesitate to block her?

[Family Court Strategies: When Your Partner Has BPD OR NPD Traits.]

I know any contact will continue to hurt me, and I already got the closest thing to closure I can get (even though that was not her motivation). I realize I don't want her.

But for some reason I cannot block her. I don't know if its cause I feel it is pointless (because I am bound to run into her), I just want to keep thinking some magical thing could happen that will fix her, or I want to continue to want to see what she says.

I also am still checking up on her social media, the longest I have lasted without doing it is 2 days.

Am I addicted to the drama in her life? When I see her sabatoging another relationship, is it reassuring me that it wasn't me?

What is my reasoning behind holding on to her when I want her gone? What can I do to get over this hump? Do I need more time? Has anybody been in this situation?

[Schermarhorn]

I know any contact will continue to hurt me, and I already got the closest thing to closure I can get (even though that was not her motivation). I realize I don't want her.

But for some reason I cannot block her. I don't know if its cause I feel it is pointless (because I am bound to run into her), I just want to keep thinking some magical thing could happen that will fix her, or I want to continue to want to see what she says.

I also am still checking up on her social media, the longest I have lasted without doing it is 2 days.

Am I addicted to the drama in her life? When I see her sabatoging another relationship, is it reassuring me that it wasn't me?

What is my reasoning behind holding on to her when I want her gone? What can I do to get over this hump? Do I need more time? Has anybody been in this situation?

[theking919]

Literally this is the exact same thing I am going through!

I do the exact same thing and today sent her a good bye message and guess what? She did not even read it and just pretended like it was nothing.

I know that feel and I think we need to do something about it

[Schermarhorn]

Literally this is the exact same thing I am going through!

I do the exact same thing and today sent her a good bye message and guess what? She did not even read it and just pretended like it was nothing.

I know that feel and I think we need to do something about it

The last message I sent her was a week ago in reply to her message. It wasn't opened.

I don't really want to initiate contact with her, I just don't want to miss out on what she has to say.

[Turkish]

I think it takes time. Maybe we wants answers, though we won't get them from our Exes. Maybe we want closure. Ditto. These were relationships. It was or is an attachment.

I blocked my Ex on FB over 1.5 years ago. Two months ago, I deactivated the old account for an unrelated matter. I had made a new one. I peeked in a moment of weakness (attachment). It was the same old stuff. I could check back, but I take it as a sign of detachment that I don't or won't.

The goal of this board is detachment (in a healthy way). Whatever time it takes is just that, for each of us.

[Learning_curve74]

You cannot block her or do you choose not to block her? I cannot make the sun rise in the west, but I can choose to sleep in until after 7 am. 

No contact is a tool and becoming detached is a process. For whatever reason you're still curious about her goings-on. What do you feel you'll be missing out on if you block her on social media?