hey joeyfisher13 and
im glad you found us, and im glad you reached out; i understand that can be scary. though all of our experiences are uniquely ours, we all have a lot in common, and i think youll find most here understand what you are going through, and can relate.
the devastation in the aftermath of these relationships can feel unreal. many of us would say that its one of the hardest things we will ever go through. many members are still going through it, and you are not alone in your pain. i dont think any of us knew how to cope with it at first.
i can understand feeling that everything you thought you knew was either not true or long gone; it makes you feel completely out of touch with reality and the world around you. i think that posting here, sharing your experience, having others share theirs and relating will go a long way toward helping you to feel less alone in this. learning more about BPD (we have endless resources) will go a long way toward helping you otherwise make some sense of what you have been through. staying social and keeping up work is helpful in the short term and the long term - take time for you as well. this is traumatic what has happened to you; it sounds like a lot of what you witnessed and went through in the relationship was as well. recovering will take time and work, so allow yourself to grieve, and also give yourself a mental break, as you are able.
none of this is easy. you mentioned being in therapy twice a week for a time; how did that go? what happened there?
please keep posting joeyfisher13, we are here for you
