Holidays...

[Eye438]

I have no fond memories with my ex on any holiday I can remember, I feel I can relax and enjoy the fall and winter season without a major episode of any kind. My exBPD called me from jail today crying so hard I couldn't understand what she was saying. It did have a lingering affect just for a few hours, then I was fine. I know I am feeling better from the little contact I have with her, it's getting easier. I find myself loving cloudy days too, I do not have seasonal affective disorder, I have always loved the seasons.

I wish everyone a healthy holiday season!

[Beacher]

Me too! Any day I wake up alive is a good one!

[letmeout]

Every day that I wake up without my ex in my face acting crazy is something I have learned to be truly thankful for!   

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

[jTrue426]

I'm struggling to not text or call my ex on this holiday... .

[butterfly15]

I feel in between the emotions. I am sad that we aren't together. Relieved that we aren't. He was always so depressed on holidays. He just had an awful childhood and then a terrible divorce and currently for the last 4 years has had zero contact with his children.

[Lonely_Astro]

I'm struggling to not text or call my ex on this holiday... .

It is difficult.  I am still LC with mine.  I made it a point to not reach out to her today, but she sent me a text wishing me a happy thanksgiving.  I did reply with a simple happy thanksgiving back.  It's still difficult because this would've been our first thanksgiving together, had it not all went sideways a month or so ago.  But, she's still wanting to play games and string me along, which is why my LC is progressively getting lower and lower. 

Stay strong today.  The longer you stay in the FOG, the worse it gets.  Each day it lifts a little more, but days like today are tough.

BTW, happy thanksgiving!

[FlyFish]

I've been two months NC after she broke up with me out of nowhere. I'm still struggling. Got a voicemail from her last night which I still have not listened to nor do I know if I should (first attempt at contact from both parties in 2 months). Not ready. Still very hurt by the breakup and just hearing her voice might make things worse. The sad thing is I would probably try the relationship again even though reading comments on this board and talking with my therapist who would strongly advise against it. Still can't move on though and I'm scared to listen to her voicemail. Is that weak of me? Don't know what to do. We had an amazing thanskgiving last year with her family and I'm kind of down today because of that. Maybe that's why she called.

Happy thanksgiving all

[guy4caligirl]

Out of no wear also my ex text me once and called while I am NC ,for over 120 days .

After I talked to her for an hour nothing about the RS or personal .

I really did good and came out confident and happy .

I don't know why she did ,,,and I never analyzed why,,, it will do me no good  ... .

If she wanted to reconcile , let be on my terms not hers ,  I am sure if that's what she wants she will try harder ,

Thank god I didn't fall for her tactics and said lets get back together she would have rejected me again , I know well what was the reason for  contacting me in the first place : nothing Or testing the water ... .She haven't contacted me in 2 weeks .

I really don't know what her situation is now .

I am going to remain NC ... .

She might have texted you Fly fish to wish you happy thanksgiving , if she is interested in a recycling, believe me she will let you know ,please stay NC  respect yourself and dignity .

[Eye438]

I've been two months NC after she broke up with me out of nowhere. I'm still struggling. Got a voicemail from her last night which I still have not listened to nor do I know if I should (first attempt at contact from both parties in 2 months). Not ready. Still very hurt by the breakup and just hearing her voice might make things worse. The sad thing is I would probably try the relationship again even though reading comments on this board and talking with my therapist who would strongly advise against it. Still can't move on though and I'm scared to listen to her voicemail. Is that weak of me? Don't know what to do. We had an amazing thanskgiving last year with her family and I'm kind of down today because of that. Maybe that's why she called.

Happy thanksgiving all

fly fish, I understand your dilemma and you are not weak, it's fear. Sooner or later you have to face you, make it sooner. You own half of that unhealthy relationship, it's time for you to realize that. I know the difficulty first hand and I do keep coming back here to keep myself going forward for myself.

Keep reading here for you, there is a lot of information and very helpful people.

[letmeout]

respect yourself and dignity

Those are powerful words to live by