Felt so strong after therapy... now significantly less

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Yesterday was the 1st full session (after introduction) with my therapist. It was a good conversation. I learned that I have a hard time dealing with injustice, causing me to feel feelings of revenge towards my BPD ex-GF. Also we concluded that her completely humiliating and devaluating me to the bone is causing me still alot of pain, 5 months after the break-up. It was a very interesting session and I felt I learnd alot.

During the break-up she tried to blackmail me to as much people as she can. Now I just saw a picture of her, happy with some friends of her. She also blackmailed me towards these person. This is still so hard to see, I still feel so strongly she doesn't deserve this. She's happy with friends... .I'm still picking up myself here. I felt so strong after therapy... .it almost feels like this is warping me back ALOT.

Does any of you have any advice that may get me back on track? It's greatly appreciated.

[Musicmaker1]

Yesterday was the 1st full session (after introduction) with my therapist. It was a good conversation. I learned that I have a hard time dealing with injustice, causing me to feel feelings of revenge towards my BPD ex-GF. Also we concluded that her completely humiliating and devaluating me to the bone is causing me still alot of pain, 5 months after the break-up. It was a very interesting session and I felt I learnd alot.

During the break-up she tried to blackmail me to as much people as she can. Now I just saw a picture of her, happy with some friends of her. She also blackmailed me towards these person. This is still so hard to see, I still feel so strongly she doesn't deserve this. She's happy with friends... .I'm still picking up myself here. I felt so strong after therapy... .it almost feels like this is warping me back ALOT.

Does any of you have any advice that may get me back on track? It's greatly appreciated.

[Suzn]

This is still so hard to see, I still feel so strongly she doesn't deserve this. She's happy with friends... .I'm still picking up myself here. I felt so strong after therapy... .it almost feels like this is warping me back ALOT.

I'm sorry you're hurting so much Musicmaker1.    We all understand the ups and downs so soon after a breakup here, 5 months isn't all that long. Even though the downs don't feel good, it's a good thing. You are not avoiding your pain you are feeling your emotions, grieving this loss is a healthy thing to do. It's ok to cry when you are sad, let yourself cry.

It may help to avoid looking at the pictures of your ex right now, till you are feeling stronger.

You are on the right track.