Hello
Thank you so much f for your reply and the lovely welcome. . I'm still trying to sort out what I actually want. I know I don't want to feel how I do at the moment and I can't keep up with his demands. He can feel me withdrawing at the moment, so he's constantly texting me etc, professing his undying love.
Even though it is a long distance relationship, we saw each other frequently to start with. It has been over a year now since our last time together. He has no interest in anything intimate and tried to put the blame on me, as he said I was being shy.
He wanted to move closer to me, but has been frittering away his money. He obviously wants to keep it long distance, but too scared to be alone.
He's very image conscious and I think the only reason he is holding on is that he likes the way I look. He's very specific regarding his likes and dislikes and apparently I fit his criteria.
I suppose I put up with all this, as it is very much like my childhood with my mother. Walking on eggshells doesn't begin to describe my life as a child. It is very much a co dependent relationship. He is also a recovering alcoholic and part of me is worried that he could start again.
He did see a therapist who said he was suffering from obsessive jealousy. I know that he spent many years in and out of rehab. He started drinking at sixteen and didn't stop until he was forty nine. He comes from an abusive background, with a mother who turned a blind eye to it. He does suffer from extreme anxiety and is taking anti depressants.
I hope I'm not rambling too much
