I'm finally on the detaching board

[LilMe]

I think I have been on and off these boards for around 5 years.  I have been on about every board, trying to make it work.  But it will not work.  My uBPD has painted me black.  The relationship has damaged my family more than I could have ever imagined.  I must get out now and repair things as best I can.

Right now I am in a really bad place.  I cannot move out yet legally.  I am stuck in a horrible limbo waiting on lawyers and judges.  I keep my distance from him as much as I can, but any contact he has with me is criticism, complaining, and rages.  And requests for sex!  So far I have managed to fend him off.

The good news is that the plan is in place and it is just a matter of time until life will be better.  Harder in some ways, but much better.  I am also coming out of this a much wiser, aware person!  :)amaged; yes, but a better, stronger person than before.  

I just wanted to say that you all are awesome!  I don't post much anymore, but do read your stories and think of you often and pray that you move out of the FOG and towards healing.