'She wasn't good enough for me.'

[Frustratedbloke]

So had a productive day, went to the Therapist and without much prompting, in fact without any, I put these words out there for the first time ever.

'She wasn't good enough for me.'

As with many of you I met mine at a terrible time in life, I thought she was my salvation before it turned out she really wasn't.

But I have been on a one year journey, despite her trying to keep me down, keep me small, which I think she genuinely did for her own benefit, I have outgrown her.

I now look back and genuinely believe she has amazing qualities, she could be a great person, but the sum of her parts? The bad part too? No, it is just not good enough for me.

We get so wrapped up in the condition, I did, the games. But today I really look at her as a whole person and I can't say I am impressed.

It feels liberating.

I was better than her, even at my worst, and now she wouldn't get five minutes of my time if I met her again, the person I am now.

It's the same thing everybody else is saying, focus on your own personal growth and suddenly everything that happened will be just a little diversion, a blip.

Then the person that you willingly gave your power too will suddenly look like a rather ridiculous, pitiful, one dimensional and pointless waste of time.

[troisette]

 

[bunny4523]

Frustratedbloke,

  there we go... .that's what I want to see more of.  Stay strong and focused on that path.  You are right and if you start to doubt yourself, come back and read this post.

Have a great day

[Frustratedbloke]

Thanks guys, there will be down days, but as I detach more and more I find myself just amused at myself for trying to make someone who just isn't capable of it to behave better, to be a better person.

She is what she is, and she doesn't deserve to be a part of my life.

[bunny4523]

Frustrated... .

you need to come post on "Good Points about us, the nons... .by JerryRG.  We are turning the corner and putting the BPD behind us.  Time to focus on that! Come join us.

[Frustratedbloke]

I was on there, I'll pop in again