Trying to make it after it's over

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 Was dating a woman who is Bi-Polar. Didn't find out until four months into the relationship. Broke it off although I'm still in love with her. Although she still is in and out of my life. I will think I'm strong enough to break free but get reeled back in. It makes me feel like a drug addict! It's not on her it's my fault. I can't seem to let an hour go back without thinking of her or wanting her. She's already dating someone else but still tries to keep me hanging on for some reason. All I'm allowing to happen is getting hurt and let down over and over. I feel like I'm losing my mind! Please help!

[Nyla]

 Was dating a woman who is Bi-Polar. Didn't find out until four months into the relationship. Broke it off although I'm still in love with her. Although she still is in and out of my life. I will think I'm strong enough to break free but get reeled back in. It makes me feel like a drug addict! It's not on her it's my fault. I can't seem to let an hour go back without thinking of her or wanting her. She's already dating someone else but still tries to keep me hanging on for some reason. All I'm allowing to happen is getting hurt and let down over and over. I feel like I'm losing my mind! Please help!

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hi Nyla and

my ex was diagnosed bipolar herself. its certainly a disorder that can take its toll on a relationship. im glad you found us, we are here to help

can you share some more of your story with us? how did you find out she has bipolar? whyd you break it off? in what ways is she in and out of your life? more insight into your situation will help us better support you.

[Nyla]

I didn't know she was Bi-Polar until I seen medications on the coffee table when I stayed overnight. So I ask if she had a medical condition. She replied that she was bi-polar and received disability benefits. But it was too late I was already head over heels for her. Over the rest of the time with her I got her in many lies. Including she loved me and wanted to be with me forever! Now I'm just trying to imagine what tomorrow looks like without her. I broke it off because she was sleeping with someone else. She acted like it didn't matter. But that last confession tore me apart. She took every piece of me and I feel like an empty shell. I'm hoping through advise from others I can go forward without her in my life.