He hated me. All the time.

[UnforgivenII]

His actions were nothing but hatred.
At the very beginning I asked him to leave me alone. I am a single mum. I lived in peace, in spite of having a difficult life. I asked him to let me go if he was not being serious, as it had taken a lot of time for me to reach this equilibrium and I had not the energy to cope with a love break up.

He did everything he could to reassure me. He pursued me for 7 months.
Then when he had me... .he destroyed me piece by piece.
Jealous... .needy... .unable to stand up with myself... (But I cope on mynown while he receive money from his parents at 46 and he is a spoiled brat).
He dropped me like a stone leaving me in the most horrific way and he happily waved his new love in my face.

This is HATRED.
I did nothing else than loving him. Everything he did was anything but decent. He hated me from the start... .when I asked not to play with my feelings and he did just for the chase.

He never ever helped me once during the relatiobship... .all he has ever given me is this depression I seem unable to get rid of.

If this is not hatred, I do not know what is it.
It is not love for sure.

[Woods77]

Sorry you are feeling so bad. Hope you start to feel better soon.

[bus boy]

I'm very sorry to read what is going on. Your post stirred up a lot of emotion in me. My eyes teared up for you when I read this. They will never change. I've been clear of my xw for over a year, I have grown so much and she is getting worse.

Wishing you all the best
Bus boy

[StayStrongNow]

UnforgivenII, my heart goes out to you. I relate to many things about your post.

Hopefully you will read posts here and you will start to perhaps understand even just a little the world of the pwBPD. This disorder is so hurtful because of its complications. On one hand pwBPDs are often exceptionally enthusiastic, idealistic, joyful, and loving on the other, well you know.

I know my words are little help in this time of hurt for you and I am so sorry you have felt the misery from this pwBPD. These pwBPDs just seem to leave us in their cold as ice wake of turmoil.

Please keep posting, I want to read about your progress. You arrived at the right place for help. Welcome.

[UnforgivenII]

When he jumped out from the car when I was driving I could have had a heart attack. I could have gone to jail if he hurt himself. All because he was not able to stand a simple disagreement! And this is the same man who has been telling my friends that "I am not able to manage my feelings". Oh when he has to lie how mature and reasonable is he? No no... .these are choices. Choices.

Thank you all for your support. What I cannot stand is the absolute lack of reasons for such a hatred.
Why did he hate me like that. Why.

[StayStrongNow]

I am so sorry but you are his trigger. He cannot handle his emotions and his anger turned inward is depression but his preferred anger is turned outward in the form of aggression. To him you are to blame for everything gone wrong.

By you being a caring thoughtful person these actions just turns your world upside down.

I am so sorry for your hurt, so many of us here have or are going through similar hurts. Keep posting, people here care. Consider us your brothers and sisters who want to hear from you and help you as much as we can.