My rubbish poem to express my last wish

[snowmonkey]

Take my hand one last time,
Hold it close and grasp me tight,
Soothe my pain and ease my fear,
Accompany me as I leave the light,

I do not want to go alone,
But why I want you there;
Is a mystery I cannot fathom,
For you led me to this despair,

Yet I want no other being,
Although others love me so,
All I want is you now,
For comfort as I go,

I no longer want a life with you,
You've ruined all our love,
Still I crave your company,
Before they fly my dove,

I know it's wishful thinking,
That soon this pain will end,
And at last you'd show true love,
For you break but cannot mend.

[Sadly]

It's not rubbish. All words that come from the heart and soul are beautiful. 

[woundedPhoenix]

I let my last wish go
A final drop in a sea of dried up tears.

My beautiful mirror.
With a golden frame.
Shiny and Bright.
Radiating love like i never knew.
Painting a perfect picture.
Forecasting a fairy tale future.
You touched my soul.
With a disarming smile
And i believed what is saw.

Slowly. Under my radar
Cracks appeared.
And i learned to love the cracks.
Interesting distortions.
A little of your pain
Absorbed by my soul.

Yet before i even realised.
The cracks became shards
A mirror broken.
Sharp edged pieces of glass
Darker then charcoal
Slowly targeting my soul
Thrown at me one by one
Cutting right through my core

My beautiful mirror.
My false truth.
Seductively innocent.
Preset to turn love into pain
And self destruct what you wanted most.

Whatever dreams may come.
The nightmare is always near.
I don't have any wishes left.

[snowmonkey]

@sadly, thank you for your reply. I also want to say that I'm sorry for the horrendous pain you are in. I've been following your posts but I'm not currently allowed to reply to other's posts. I felt terrible for you the other day when you were clearly heart broken and felt that nobody here cared as you had no replies. Rest assured that I you have all my sympathies.

@WP, that is heart-breakingly beautiful. I like the last three lines the most as they seem to capture how I am feeling now.

[woundedPhoenix]

Likewise Snowmonkey.

'For you break but you cannot mend'

It is so true.