Welcome angsan!
I'm glad you've joined our online family here.
I'm sorry that you have not had any contact with your mom these past 2 years. She has not made any efforts to be in touch with you either? Sometimes it can be helpful, but not if you don't know what is going on. Do you think she may have BPD? What types of things make you think this if so?
I thought I would have figured out something by now but I haven't
We
all wish our BPD would see the

and understand what their behavior has done to us. You are not alone in wanting to figure this out!
Wools