She don't think like I do. Dot dot dot

[Beware of Junk Psychology...]

I'm in the 4th grade. I like this boy but Im kind of shy I don't know if he would like me to. He is over there with his friends. They're looking at that one girl. He probably likes her. nvm he's not going to like me. Lunch is over time to go to class (my secret crush is nowhere on my mind. My new friend who sits next to me is and we are exchanging funny notes about the teacher).
The school day is over. Time to go home. I hope my mom is home. Im hungry. I can't wait to get home to play with my next door neighbor. Can't wait to show her my new toy (secret crush has not been on my mind since I saw him at lunch but I still like him a lot). Mom can we go to the movies? Yay! (Not thinking about my crush bc I'm with my siblings and we're hoping we can get McDonalds.) See movie, go home, go to sleep. Schools next day. See crush at lunch and all of the above or something like it repeats.  He says hi to me. I smile. Then I come closer so i can admire him better. He is nice. I go home and plan our life together in my diary. We're going to get married and have to kids. Live in... .and we're going to be happy like couples on TV.  Then comes 2weeks later. I noticed another boy. He is cute. Last week's crush suddenly doesn't interest me that much. He still like me but to talk I don't like him anymore bc i know he likes that other girl and my mind has shifted to another boy. 2weeks later, repeat until I notice something cute in another boy. Could be his smile. Could be the way his mother dresses him. Could be I like him bc i want to say I have a boyfriend. idk all I know is, I think he is cute and I feel nothing else for him but I'm sure I love him. But we don't do anything together bc we're kids and we don't own our lives. and if my friends didn't like him, me either.
Now, I changed my mind.  I think I is better to date somebody that hangs out with the people me and my siblings hang out with. All my other friends are doing it, so I completely forget I had a boyfriend... .until I see him again, and even though it's only been 2 days and he didn't do nothing to me, I just don't like him no more and I'm mad at him bc i have a new interest. If he is nice to me I will be his friend but if he dare to act like my boyfriend then i won't.

Once I saw her as this, I understood better. Forgave some things and relaxed my mind.

[FallBack!Monster]

I'm in the 4th grade. I like this boy but Im kind of shy I don't know if he would like me to. He is over there with his friends. They're looking at that one girl. He probably likes her. nvm he's not going to like me. Lunch is over time to go to class (my secret crush is nowhere on my mind. My new friend who sits next to me is and we are exchanging funny notes about the teacher).
The school day is over. Time to go home. I hope my mom is home. Im hungry. I can't wait to get home to play with my next door neighbor. Can't wait to show her my new toy (secret crush has not been on my mind since I saw him at lunch but I still like him a lot). Mom can we go to the movies? Yay! (Not thinking about my crush bc I'm with my siblings and we're hoping we can get McDonalds.) See movie, go home, go to sleep. Schools next day. See crush at lunch and all of the above or something like it repeats.  He says hi to me. I smile. Then I come closer so i can admire him better. He is nice. I go home and plan our life together in my diary. We're going to get married and have to kids. Live in... .and we're going to be happy like couples on TV.  Then comes 2weeks later. I noticed another boy. He is cute. Last week's crush suddenly doesn't interest me that much. He still like me but to talk I don't like him anymore bc i know he likes that other girl and my mind has shifted to another boy. 2weeks later, repeat until I notice something cute in another boy. Could be his smile. Could be the way his mother dresses him. Could be I like him bc i want to say I have a boyfriend. idk all I know is, I think he is cute and I feel nothing else for him but I'm sure I love him. But we don't do anything together bc we're kids and we don't own our lives. and if my friends didn't like him, me either.
Now, I changed my mind.  I think I is better to date somebody that hangs out with the people me and my siblings hang out with. All my other friends are doing it, so I completely forget I had a boyfriend... .until I see him again, and even though it's only been 2 days and he didn't do nothing to me, I just don't like him no more and I'm mad at him bc i have a new interest. If he is nice to me I will be his friend but if he dare to act like my boyfriend then i won't.

Once I saw her as this, I understood better. Forgave some things and relaxed my mind.