New post ever about BPD

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Hi

I have never been diagnosed with BPD but have bi-polar, which I think is wrong. I've read the post regarding a BPD person conducting a relationship with someone and how they end up controlling them for their own needs. This makes me so sad as ive only just realised this must be what I'm doing with my current partner who i love very much. I'm jekyll and hyde. And a massive alarm is I'm 34 and he is only 18.
I love him deeply and he does me, but I do not want to ruin his life with my own mental health issues, he is far too young to be dealing with this.
Mental health hurts so much and I feel no one understands me. I wish I could just escape my brain and just be "normal"

[Missclio82]

Hi

I have never been diagnosed with BPD but have bi-polar, which I think is wrong. I've read the post regarding a BPD person conducting a relationship with someone and how they end up controlling them for their own needs. This makes me so sad as ive only just realised this must be what I'm doing with my current partner who i love very much. I'm jekyll and hyde. And a massive alarm is I'm 34 and he is only 18.
I love him deeply and he does me, but I do not want to ruin his life with my own mental health issues, he is far too young to be dealing with this.
Mental health hurts so much and I feel no one understands me. I wish I could just escape my brain and just be "normal"

[Larmoyant]

Hi Missclio82, it sounds like you are in a lot of pain and I'm sorry you feel no one understands you. It is very courageous to reach out for help and support and your self-awareness is a great asset to you. This site is a support group for those who are or have been in a relationship with a person with BPD, and many of the posts here may be triggering for a BPD sufferer. There are many other resources which can help you and you could check out some of these:

https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.html

There is help available for you and I wish you all the very best. 

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Hi misscleo

It is great to see that you recognize your behaviour and how it is affecting your partner.
Have you talked to your doctor since you have learned about BPD? You show great strength in wanting to change. This site may be hurtful for you. Would you talk to a therapist who specializes in BPD?

[Notwendy]

Hi misscleao,

I am glad you had the courage to post. It is hard to do this. Those of us who are in relationships with pwBPD also need to take a close look at ourselves. We may all not have the same things to work on, but personal insight and responsibility for our feelings and decisions is a good thing for many people. Taking care of your own emotional issues is a huge gift to yourself and to the people who love you.

You have also shown caring and insight when you said your BF is too young to deal with these things. As a mom of teens, I agree that 18 is very young when it comes to the world of relationships. Teens this age may have deep feelings, but little experience in navigating an emotional relationship. Taking care of your own emotional issues is also a gift to him.

But mostly, it is for you. It's a form of self love. We can all probably use a little more of that.