Hi AlliKat,
We understand you are dealing with a difficult time and you are looking for support. And that's what we do here, so I have a referral to pass your way:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/Themes/default/welcome3.htmlThis particular site is more geared towards dealing with people who have been in a relationship with someone with BPD, and aiding in their understanding and dealing with things that come along with such ties. The above link will be more geared towards the healing process from the perspective of someone that suffers from BPD. I personally acknowledge your courage in reaching out for help, and I hope you find the support you need. This just isn't the place that caters to the support type you seek. We hope you understand... .and find what you desire and need in a support network. It's great to see you have reached out and are getting the guidance of a therapist, many of us have done the same, and found them worth their weight in gold! Good on you for taking a step to better your future!