I made it New year, new possibilities

[Cosuffer]

Hi and happy new year everybody

Good news!

First, I recommend you to read my earlier posts!

10 months after my breakup with my gfw ptsd/BPD It finally seems to have reach an end off push/pull and manipulating behavior.

I went through 4 very intens month where I lost 11 kg and slept 2 hours in average for weeks! After implemnted tot. NC she startede to show up at my work and at my door. We live 200 km from each other! And out of nowhere she filede a police report on me for harassment. I and the police was pretty sure that the case would be dropped, but still I had to go trough interrogation 2 times. I later found out that after she had filed the report she showed up at my work (we worked together, she as a sub. I'm permanently employed!)!.

I also startede to receive strange phone calls from a callcenter in her hometown, and foreign numbers?

About 2 weeks ago I came home and found a letter from the police in my mailbox. And it informed me that the case was dropped because she could not support her accusations!
I now feel SO relieved and to be honest I can't help to feel a little bitt triumphal. After all she have done to break, ruin, hurt and manipulate me. I now have the law on my side. Even though it was she who reported me to the police!

Only worry is that 4 days after I received the letter I started to receive phonically from the callcenter in her home town and foreign numbers again... .? I just blocked them. But it dosen't bring me down and dosen't bring me out of focus anymore. And if she shows up at my doorstep I will notify the police!

I also have change my workplace to another division in my hometown, so now she or her fam. don't have any excuse to show up at my work. Not for working nor as in privat!

When I think back to the times when it was at it worst i'm so proud to bee where I am now. It's been hell and back, but I never gave up. I did feel lost, broken, sad, disappointed, hurt, angry, almost suicidal, depressed, confused, anxiety and hopeless. But I used this forum, and my friends and family for support. It has helped me enormous to read about others experiences, and from people suffering from ptds/BPD. It have given me better understanding for the, in times tot. irrational actions and behaviorisme, and given me strength to face the next wave of attack in some form or another from my x.

  THANK YOU ALL   

[SuperJew82]

Congrats! Welcome to a better and healthier life!

Thank you for the inspiration!

[heartandwhole]

When I think back to the times when it was at it worst i'm so proud to bee where I am now. It's been hell and back, but I never gave up. I did feel lost, broken, sad, disappointed, hurt, angry, almost suicidal, depressed, confused, anxiety and hopeless. But I used this forum, and my friends and family for support. It has helped me enormous to read about others experiences, and from people suffering from ptds/BPD. It have given me better understanding for the, in times tot. irrational actions and behaviorisme, and given me strength to face the next wave of attack in some form or another from my x.

Cosuffer, I am very happy for you! I remember what a difficult time you were having; now you sound like you are in a much better place. That is really good news.   

I'm glad that the police saw through that attempt to put you in trouble with them. That is so stressful and upsetting. Now, you are free to move forward and leave that pain behind.

Thank you for sharing how you handled this. You have a lot to be proud of. Stay strong and keep taking good care of yourself and your loved ones! 

heartandwhole

[infjEpic]

Congrats!

I'm on about 7 months NC I think, I feel much, much better.

Since joining this forum and trying to help others, I have much less anger and think about all those hurtful things much less frequently.
I still think of her everyday, but with far less intense emotions.

I think using the forum almost helps me to compartmentalize those thoughts - like, oh I've an hour for thinking about this, then I'll do something else and not think about it.