I finally snapped. Got tired of walking on eggshells.

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

I have been happily out for a month. ExPwBPD broke up with me. I never really knew why I never got proper closure. I suffered a lot my first couple of weeks. I'm in a better place now. In an attempt to save my sanity I ran out of the apartment we shared. Leaving a lot behind. About a week ago I attempted to contact him to retrieve my belongings and of course I was ignored. I received an email from yesterday (exactly a month I left) where he stated he didn't know what belongings I was talking about. I replied with a detailed list of all my belongings that added up to over 1k. Which he responded with "I threw everything away and replaced it nothing here belongs to you. Leave me alone." Out of anger my reply was : "I left that  behind cause I needed to get the ___ out of that place as fast as I could to protect and defend my sanity. I was sitting there begging a psychopath to no leave me knowing I didn't want to be with him. I was so addicted to a toxic person I almost lost my ___ing sanity.
Let's be ___ing real here,  of course something was wrong with me when I wanted to stay with a man that beat me physically like I was some bomb on the street, abused me mentally, spit in my face, called me names, has an alcohol problem and is a cocaine addict. And it's not like I was addicted to that man I was hooked on the fake representative I met in the beginning. Cause that's what happened that's how I got so addicted to you. You pretended to be someone that you're not someone that you will never be. You want and wish to be normal but you'll never be able to be cause you have mental issues your crazy ass ___. You dont even know why you're mad at me you can't even say with certainty what I did. Cause I didn't do  you did this to yourself and you don't know how to deal with your ___ed up self.

So keep all that  you claim to have thrown away and shove it up your ass just like you like it you ___ing ___. Flip that tablet on the street for some coke money. I don't give a ___. Leave you alone ? What the ___ you mean ? You already are alone you'll always be alone you sick ___. I don't want you're little ___ ass. You ain't even on my level. "

His response was a lot less than I expect and it was a simple "you're so classy" which didn't bother me I wasn't going for classy. I now have blocked him on every outlet to me possible. Was I wrong maybe but I was hurt I was angryim only human and I suffered a great deal.

Has anyone ever experienced the same situation will he just leave me alone now I'm scared of him if he attempts retaliation or revenge. I just want it to be over.

[Outofthesmoke]

I have been happily out for a month. ExPwBPD broke up with me. I never really knew why I never got proper closure. I suffered a lot my first couple of weeks. I'm in a better place now. In an attempt to save my sanity I ran out of the apartment we shared. Leaving a lot behind. About a week ago I attempted to contact him to retrieve my belongings and of course I was ignored. I received an email from yesterday (exactly a month I left) where he stated he didn't know what belongings I was talking about. I replied with a detailed list of all my belongings that added up to over 1k. Which he responded with "I threw everything away and replaced it nothing here belongs to you. Leave me alone." Out of anger my reply was : "I left that  behind cause I needed to get the ___ out of that place as fast as I could to protect and defend my sanity. I was sitting there begging a psychopath to no leave me knowing I didn't want to be with him. I was so addicted to a toxic person I almost lost my ___ing sanity.
Let's be ___ing real here,  of course something was wrong with me when I wanted to stay with a man that beat me physically like I was some bomb on the street, abused me mentally, spit in my face, called me names, has an alcohol problem and is a cocaine addict. And it's not like I was addicted to that man I was hooked on the fake representative I met in the beginning. Cause that's what happened that's how I got so addicted to you. You pretended to be someone that you're not someone that you will never be. You want and wish to be normal but you'll never be able to be cause you have mental issues your crazy ass ___. You dont even know why you're mad at me you can't even say with certainty what I did. Cause I didn't do  you did this to yourself and you don't know how to deal with your ___ed up self.

So keep all that  you claim to have thrown away and shove it up your ass just like you like it you ___ing ___. Flip that tablet on the street for some coke money. I don't give a ___. Leave you alone ? What the ___ you mean ? You already are alone you'll always be alone you sick ___. I don't want you're little ___ ass. You ain't even on my level. "

His response was a lot less than I expect and it was a simple "you're so classy" which didn't bother me I wasn't going for classy. I now have blocked him on every outlet to me possible. Was I wrong maybe but I was hurt I was angryim only human and I suffered a great deal.

Has anyone ever experienced the same situation will he just leave me alone now I'm scared of him if he attempts retaliation or revenge. I just want it to be over.

[joeramabeme]

Hi Outofhtesmoke

Welcome to BPD Family.   

Has anyone ever experienced the same situation

Yes, I have felt exactly as you stated in your reply, although I never got that detailed with actual responses to my ex, I imagined saying all of those things. 

Living with someone that has BPD can be very frustrating and make you grasp for any way possible to get them to hear what you are saying.  I used to yell thinking that if I got more emotional and upset in my tone that would queue her into listening to my words.  Sadly, it almost always made it worst and not better.

Sounds like you have moved from shared living arrangements?  Are you in a better place at the moment?  Are you worried he will contact you again?

JRB