Hello wonderful people!
I am so glad to find this community and after quite some time I took the courage to finally sign in and interact with you! As each of you - I have my own story, which if I'll find more courage - I'll eventually post it. Without boring you - I became obsessed about finding the key to finally FIX this - until I realized there is no magical tool on fixing it, but rather learn in a smart way to live with and not necessarily considering as a burden but contrary! In my obsessed quest for finding 'the truth' I came to a personal conclusion: watching hours and hours of videos was not really helping me because I already knew most of the things described in the videos. What helped me was the fact that I felt understood and not alone which was and it is still vital. So instead of just watching from the side and always having the feeling that the video is 'almost there' but not quite it came to my mind to actually use what I call the collective knowledge (well, it sounds pompous, but yeah) - in other words the huge databases which - let's be honest - don't really have that 'human touch'. But I actually found a way to reconcile my thirst for knowledge with kind of a ...human touch and I decided to touch a side of a discussion not so much discussed, which is the perspective of a partner. That being said - I decided to create some videos - which to be honest - did not take too much time and effort, but somehow I felt satisfied with the result and I want to share them with you. For me, personally, it helps me to calm down, to listen to something while I close my eyes and pretend that I'm in a nice cozy place, in a café or such, surrounded by beautiful good hearted people. That feeling actually was better than tons of cold research and stuff, even thou the information is still there! But the point is not the information it itself, but how it is delivered, which I find satisfying! That being said, it is my very pleasure to share some samples with you, hoping that you can find the tranquility and the calm I found. (sorry for my bad English, hopefully it is understandable, since it is not my mother language)
Here's a sample of 'my' creation and if you ladies and gentleman like the style, I am willing to approach whatever subject you may suggest, especially if it involves the partner's perspective!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U4q8i0hNkNM&t=5s