So, im really into music. My BPD partner is also. We find our connection through music. We even play instruments together.
Anyway I was thinking about this forum and all the stories I read and all the people on here ,some wanting to save what they have and other wanting to leave it and I saw so many similar stories to my own.
Ive know my partner since we were young and even as friends we struggled but that one thing that connects us has become such a huge part of my life. I want to share that connection with everyone here. Music is my therapist when I cant see my normal one. I can find a song for every mood, or feeling.
My partner and I are coming off another fight and I keep wondering why I go back why each time I find myself right there. Its an additiction I think ...to love someone with BPD to really care about them and want them its amazing and also just terrible.
Its a ________in drag... but you keep going back. Idk at least its how I feel about it some times. Hes so amazing and I love him so much but he can be the worst monster of my nightmares too.
To get to my point songs can say alot ...and ultimately id like to make a whole Playlist on what it feels like to love someone with BPD.
This song stands out to me though
Nicotine by Panic ! At the Disco.
https://youtu.be/LkBxcmxWKAA?si=8qYY-jFgujpX8qPVI hope all of you can listen and let me know if it fits your experience.. or if you have song ideas from your own experience id love to hear them . Id really like to make this list .
