Push Pull situationship

[boya]

The 1-Month Pattern: We started dating a month ago. It has been a constant cycle of intense push-pull. Her rejections (pushes) became increasingly extreme over time, but she always came back crying shortly after.
The Escalation: A few days ago, we got heavily drunk together. She kissed me first, and after a short time i accepted her. We went up to his apartment, we drank there, we kissed, she said she love me etc, but I didn't let her get close to me sexually. the next day she blamed me for everything, and texted that we must cut contact forever. She then blocked me on Instagram.
 After just two days of total silence from my end, she broke. At 4 AM last night, she showed up drunk/high at my doorstep.The Night/Morning Shifts: The moment she entered, she frantically grabbed my jewelry from the floor, put it all on, and hugged me with terrifying, sobbing intensity and cried. We hugged, kissed but still didnt let her do sexually stuff. The next morning she get cold, took off my jewelry and told me she had sex with an other guy before she comed here. we talked nearly every day on video call etc before the first drinking but after it she blocked and now she follow a lot of new guy etc and running or idk. I was always understanding and calm with her and accepted her back. but right now i dont know.

I dont wanna run away i love her, but i want to understand her behavior, i feel like she love me too deeply she want to run away as hard and fast as she can and punishes me for this.

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